I know it has been a while, which maybe putting it mildly. When I look at the date 27th January when I last posted on here, I know why I have left it for so long. At the start of February my long seven year battle finally drew to a close. I cannot actually believe I am writing this but I feel I have been given my freedom back from what felt like a life sentence.
It is mainly this closure that has impacted on posting on here. On the one hand it feels like I have been given a life line and can look to the future. On a physical and emotional point of view these last few years have taken its toll on my mind and body. There is an strong sense of severe exhaustion that has hit me to the point where at times I feel like a zombie.
When others have not been through what you have it is easy for them to judge but going through a legal battle like this does take its toll on your mind and body. I don't want to look back but when at every angle you are fighting and stripped away of all your rights, never mind feelings it it puts stress on the body in very extreme ways.
I remember some of the days in court when my heart would be racing, I would gasp for breath and go for long periods of time without eating or drinking, no wonder it is catching up with me now! Often I would do a full day at work then afterwards have a solicitors appointment or grilling assessment with a psychologist, then have a child to take care of. I guess this has tired me out but also made me want to just de-stress myself a bit now and take it easy.
Life has not completely quietened down though I still like to make some noise. I plan to be up and running with the blog again and will go into the other excitement in my life. As a kind of introduction to the next post here is a flavor of what I have been up to. Despite the turbulence I have brought another book out. More to be revealed in the next post. Literally watch this space for more.
It is mainly this closure that has impacted on posting on here. On the one hand it feels like I have been given a life line and can look to the future. On a physical and emotional point of view these last few years have taken its toll on my mind and body. There is an strong sense of severe exhaustion that has hit me to the point where at times I feel like a zombie.
When others have not been through what you have it is easy for them to judge but going through a legal battle like this does take its toll on your mind and body. I don't want to look back but when at every angle you are fighting and stripped away of all your rights, never mind feelings it it puts stress on the body in very extreme ways.
I remember some of the days in court when my heart would be racing, I would gasp for breath and go for long periods of time without eating or drinking, no wonder it is catching up with me now! Often I would do a full day at work then afterwards have a solicitors appointment or grilling assessment with a psychologist, then have a child to take care of. I guess this has tired me out but also made me want to just de-stress myself a bit now and take it easy.
Life has not completely quietened down though I still like to make some noise. I plan to be up and running with the blog again and will go into the other excitement in my life. As a kind of introduction to the next post here is a flavor of what I have been up to. Despite the turbulence I have brought another book out. More to be revealed in the next post. Literally watch this space for more.
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