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My Motherhood Journey.



Last week my family and I celebrated a day we never thought would happen, Nishka's fifth birthday. Motherhood has and still continues to be a journey for me on so many levels. I was looking back at poems I penned before I had Nishka, during pregnancy and more recently, it really has been an emotional roller coaster.

The day I found out I was pregnant with Nishka was a day that changed my life forever, in more ways than I thought.  I really hope reading this poem will also give other women out there some hope. It seemed to take me forever to get pregnant and I was not getting any younger. There were people around me who could just pop them out so easily and made me feel there was something wrong with me. I got some of the usual sarcastic remarks, " you are not getting any younger", " shouldn't you have had a child by now". At one time it looked impossible for me to conceive, something I will elaborate on later on. On the day I found out I was going to have Nishka I wrote this poem;

Long Awaited News.

It took a while to happen,
 used against me as a weapon.
Among all the strife,
I created a life.

Lost at sea,
The odds against me.
Never a positive word to say,
but I knew it would be OK..

Tolerating everything in vain,
all the trials and pain..
Holding back my rage,
told I was not the right age.

With my courage and will,
often making myself ill,
how wrong were their views?
I got my good news.

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